Where to start? It's been over a month now since my last post. I'd like to try and explain what my mind's been through in the past month, but every time I write something it comes out sounding like the voiceover to a bad screenplay. And then I cringe, highlight and violently press DELETE. 

Lets just say I'm better now. My mind's focused mainly on my writing and what my plans are going to be for the night. And egypt. I'm planning on going to Egypt in January with my Mom. How exciting! But since I'm the only child out of my immediate family who's ever been out of the country, I thought it was only fair that I pay for at least my ticket (over $1000!!!) and some other smaller expenses. But I've always been fairly descent at saving up my money, and this will only motivate me to work. And as another plus, I will always have something uplifting to think about at work while I'm daydreaming instead of helping out customers. Which is a frequent occurrence. 

The past 12 days of officially residing in Long Beach again have been filled with numerous parties, bridgeview lovin, 4 hour filmmaking conversations, beach bummin it, late night car rides to the Witches Brew and The Cup and Irish boys. Gotta love those accents!

Sometimes I just feel like doing this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=brR9bVkq71o 

too bad all of our trains are underground. 

Surpirse, Surprise I have insomnia AGAIN

Okay, maybe its not insomnia today. Maybe it's I-woke-up-at-3:30-this-afternoon-disorder? So since I've only been up for 12 hours, its like its 10 pm for someone who wakes up at a reasonable hour on a saturday? Fuck. That doesn't make sense either. Cause why would a normal person have an insane amount of energy at 10 o'clock at night??? 

This isn't good. Because I have a whole lot of studying ahead of me to finish. And my hyperness is not allowing me to sit still and write index cards. Especially since I've been doing that ALL DAY. And I really need to get my studying done tonight because I'm working from 2:15 to sometime past midnight tomorrow (who knew it takes  over 4 hours to close a store? I sure didn't...). Whatever. At least I'm making money. And I want to start saving up now for a) an SLR digital camera and b) my study abroad program that I'm planning on taking part in when my first semester of junior year comes along. Which is totally sooner than it seems.

Although 21 just isn't coming fast enough...

La dee da.... I think I'm close to manic right now. 

This isn't good. 

Wish me luck on a speedy recovery to sanity and the ability to concentrate?

Well THIS Explains A Lot

I'm glad I'm not the only one out there like myself. 

http://www.theatlantic.com/doc/200303/rauch

(If you're wondering, but hopefully you're not because I think it's painfully obvious after reading the article, I would consider myself a complete introvert, not an extravert)  

Humanity

I feel like I've just been beat up psychologically. My heart is thumping. My breathing's shallow. I'm nauseous and my head feels like its swelling up. My mind is hazy and unclear. 

I hate the way humans treat each other. I hate that their are millions of people around the world who have no voice. That oppression takes place constantly and consistently. That people are unwilling to keep an open mind and listen to what others have to say. That sometimes, you're surrounded by a group of people who you feel so out of synch with that leaving the room seems like an only option. Because some people are so stubborn and set on their own personal agenda that they can't sit back and think, hey--maybe I'm wrong and the other person's right.

Get a grip. Stop hating. Listen with open ears. Accept. Be gracious.

I think I'm taking a break from politics for a while. Not intellectually, but actively. I'm so done with the student movements going on at Hunter. I can't take it. 

Evidently, $8.50/hr isn't that great after all for a job in manhattan. Umm, gonna start handing in applications at restaurants. Arghh.